The Moon Over My Regrets

The moon tonight is heartbreaking.
Most nights when I look into the sky
And see the reflecting glow from so distant
A whisper of a smile is all that flits
Across my mind.
But tonight
The light is so illuminating
That I see the whole moon
And it becomes a tangible, real, galactic place
Not just an idea that exists only
In my own pretend.
It is real
It is space.
It is a reminder of the failures
Both mine and those of mankind.
My father,
The stable support of my fragile existence
The man who has sacrificed to give
Me the future he believes I deserve,
Has truly desired one thing.
Space.
When I asked,
As a child questioning,
What it was that this larger-than-life
Hero
Wanted to do most in this world,
His answer came without pause.
Space.
He wishes to look out the porthole,
Kin to that through which he gazed
While at sea,
And see the galaxy laid out before him
Stars like sequins
Space like a thick blanket of night
Planets and moons and asteroids
floating past like corks in the ocean.
And the moon tonight
Shining in the heavens
A cold reminder of what I can never deliver.

OH MY GOSH IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG

Wow. It's been absolutely forever. 6 months in fact, since I have written in this wee little blog of mine. What's been happening you ask? Oh, nothing... Nothing at all! Just kidding, I've been doing so much work for my classes. Not that it's paying off haha, but I'm trying! I took my first final today! First of four. Tomorrow, I'm heading into an 11am Developmental Psychology final, and then a 7pm Chemistry final. Developmental Psychology doesn't pose much of a problem luckily; I only need a 90 (2 points lower than I got on my last test) to get an A in the class! I'm so excited: this has been my favorite class so far in college I think! I'm a Psychology major, so doing so well in Psyc classes makes me very hopeful for my future in my college's program!
Glad to be back <3
G